Love is in the air

<3

Feeling happy is fantastic :)

finally i have the feeling to write again. so here it goes..


these past few months has been good to me. in fact, it has been great since 3rd of december 2010 :) i have found him. The one that i've waited for. His my best friend and also my boyfriend. Its funny how we start this relationship. It was during school days when we started to talk to each other. Actually it was not like talk as in face to face talk but what the heck we still talk right :p so it starts from one subject which is "iphone". then it goes on and on and on until one point where we fought. we fought because of there was misunderstanding. at that time we were not together yet. So when we fought at that night i was crying my heart out. i just stay in my brother's room and cry all night long. why i cried? because i thought i could believe him. i told him everything that i felt and somewhere somehow other people got to know about it. So what else would a 19 year old girl would do is to curse in my fb page. haha it was harsh words and it was the first time for me to be so angry towards someone and being so pissed off towards someone. and 1 week has pass then 1 month has pass. we still not talking to each other. then i found 1 msg in my inbox in fb. it was from him. he can still practically ask "you're mad at me?" haha i was getting really pissed off at him more and more. but i dint reply back to him. so it just keep on going for about 2-3 month. until at 1 point i was thinking, its really tiring to get mad at someone for so long. so i've decided to reply his msg. then after that we talk back again like we always do :)

we practically sms everyday! day and night. so we decided to go out for the first time. it was really nerve wrecking! can you imagine talking to the same person day and night but never go out with him even once. so i was thinking this gonna be awkward. really awkward! so we agreed to go out for a movie. i was like omg omg help me not to freak out on that day. and obviously it dint work out as i plan. i went to the wrong direction instead of going to midvalley i was heading to klcc -.-" it was a great day to get lost -.- so find the way out and head back to midvalley. actually the outing was not that bad but sometimes you realise theres the awkward moment when you dont know what to talk about. i guess everyone been there before so who cares. then the first outing was done. btw before we go out for the first time we were afraid of calling each other sayang or bie. because thats what we do in sms :p so now looking forward for the second date. it was the same as before but less awkward as you tend to avoid being silence and we try to talk as much as we can. so from that point on we regularly go out together. then theres 1 day. as i was remember it was the day my brother got his result and boy tell me it was bad. haha kidding. continue on..that night i was texting him like usual. then he suddenly give me this omg-how-am-i-suppose-to-reply-to-this-kind-of-sms kind of thing. he wrote "dayang azuin eleena. i love you. fullstop." when i first read that i nearly fall down from a chair. i was still blinking and keep reading the text over and over again. and i was thinking what am i suppose to say. cause you know, when you receive this kind of text, you already been ask to take it or leave it. and i just knew what to reply and i did. it was a "blushing cheeks" night . i was smiling non stop haha

from there we start going out officially and calling ourselves "us" instead of you and me. it was a great feeling :) and from that we've been going out ever since. atleast twice every week. practically we cant stand of without each other for long time hehe. i just love how we work together. as im not the brave-enough-to-tell-you-that-you-done-wrong or something like. we discovered a way to deal with it without get into a fight if it is not necessary and we called it heart2heart talk *thumbs up* haha so when i have things that i dont really comfortable with or he want to tell me something..we'll ask "can i have heart2heart talk" so then all the problems come out jealousy la apa la . basically everything we bring it out. sometimes im afraid because we never been argue about anything since we've been together. and that is freaky..not to say that im asking for a point to argue about, its just that we try to sort it out before it come as an issue which gets bigger and bigger if we dont solve it. so why dont we solve it before it become an issue. i dont wanna argue with him because i know how it would turn out. im afraid it would be as bad as we argue before which is unbearable for me to go through it again. so we will try to solve it slowly.

and now theres nothing more than happiness in me. im in love him. i truly am. going out with him makes me happy. and sometimes its funny because you know why, we would hang out at darus and just talk bad about people hahaha! or maybe doing some funny jokes that only both of us understand. i cant stay away from him for a long time. eventhough i dont see him everyday but texting is a must everyday! haha so practically i cant get enough of him :) i miss him everyday and every minute.i cant lose him. thats what i know. i cant afford to lose him. but if i do i wouldnt know how i will cope without him in my life. all i can say is thank you for having the courage to confess to me. thank you for giving me attention and care for me. thank you for spending your time on me eventhough you have other things to do. thank you give me your love unconditionally. thank you for understanding me when no other people can. thank you for sharing all your secret. thank you for thinking of me in your dreams. thank you for everything that you did for me and thank you for loving me the way i am.

you know who you are :) i love you and miss you much <3

Midnight Blues

As people says as you being alone you will think alot of stuff. Not alone as in single but when you're in a big house and theres no one ala you know that kind of moment. and for me tonight is the night. where all sorts of minds, thoughts everything are gathered here in my tiny brain and waiting for me to pass it one by one. I've thinking about my life. Everything. About me, studies, family, God, relationships and more of that kind of stuff. As im thinking about my studies i still have 2 more years to go and thats if "insyallah" i finish it on time and no stuck in the way of doing it. college life has being unfair . as usual life itself it not fair right..so we just kinda have to suck it up and finish it up asap! family wise...maybe im not being good enough to my family. to my parents i should been more responsible and be good to them . interact more with and stuff.my sister and brother maybe i should be more supportive to them than nag them to hell about how to clean up you toilet and stuff..haha but yea being good to them its not gonna cost me a thing in fact it would be better between us. so i should be good to them from now one. Not drastically but a bit by bit is enough. God . ahhh im not gonna tlk about this. I'll have to handle it with spiritual me to change from bad to good. Do more good to the world for god sake. Relationship. ah the most common problem for me from the beginning. I've never had a good one from the start so maybe its a taboo that if you start with a bad one it will continue on forever. Maybe thats what happen in my case. From the first to the second and to the third. It never been the way i want it to be or maybe just because im not good enough for them or maybe they deserve a better one. Who knows...you just follow what you want and see how it goes along the way. Maybe you learn something from it and it makes you get the idea of how it works. But if it really love and not like. if i love someone maybe i would do anything from him. after the trauma of the first which i cried for a week for it and it goes on and on and on until i never see his face again. after the incident i've never say" i love you" anymore. It just make me realize that its not easy to say the word if you really dun mean it. As what my friend said maybe my heart has turn into a rock. I've got no feelings for anyone for over ?? years. im just cold around people and with my high ego that never goes down. maybe thats the reason people wont approach me..haha i guess so. adding to it is my temper. huah..too much to handle! im so pity and salute to whomever can tolerate with me in these past years. but maybe with the right guy or partner all of it will be invisible. who would know..We just plan it and god will decide whether to give chance to us to make it happen. All i can say thank you to the people who always been there for me and suck all my temper/ego up. you guys rocks :)

so BEAST!

Everyday I shock SHOCK!
Every night I shock SHOCK!



WOOOHHHOOOOOO~~~~ I went to BEAST showcase in KL Live ! It was awesome! went there by train and at today lah the train gonna stop at middle of nowhere for 20 freaking minutes -.-" but at the end it still moves so wth kan. then we were running in kl sentral and monorail and finally arrive at raja chulan station and continue on with running again..haha then there we were KL Live :D it was around 6.30 and the show is gonna start at 7 supposedly but we were standing out there till 8. it was freaking pissed off time where the management was kinda put us out there and not letting us go in..then some of the fans are starting to get angry..then all of sudden all of them start to push each other and theres kinda riot in front there..haha its gila and we just got to get wild there man..haih but around 8.15 finally we masuk :) hehe so we were having a rough night by pushing and the girls screaming wah it a lot to take in one night but wth its just one in a lifetime so screw that! so at the end I HAVE A GOOD TIME BY SCREAMING AND WATCHING VERY VERY GOOD LOOKING GUYS ..hehe

-XOXO-

Sounds of vacuum, sneezing and A LOT MORE!

HAH! at last my finals is done for the whole semester. And now my holiday begin :D Just few weeks back, when im in the study week or so I was thinking damn i have many things to do when im done with the finals but now im on holiday but theres NOTHING/ NADA/ MEI YOU/OPSSO/ TAKDE in my "list of things to do". Thats the pelik part..then what the hell i think that i have a lot of stuff to do..but of course for sure one of my main priorities is to clean up my room! it looks like KERAZYYY~ and that is why tomorrow is gonna be the sound of vacuum and people sneezing all over the house..but i think my mom has plan tomorrow and that is going to klcc again to meet her friend..I dont want to go. its boring there..

Oh yea talking about holiday, my college mates (you know who you are people) are planning to do BBQ again this thursday night.its kinda custom or routine to do this everytime we finish our finals..its fun eating.chatting away and battle guitar hero AHAH! So their paper are gonna finish at 10 so gonna catch some movie then i dun know...lepaking sumwhere first..they wanna do it at my place. i dun mind seriously but mami is not in a good mood today because bro macbook gone cuckoo so i dun dare to ask her. just assume that she wont let..so theres only 3 choice which is do it at the padang, jasmita house or no BBq at all...haih so hopefully theres a venue that we can do this and end this semester with a BBQ XD

Exams

I think i just screwed up my 25 marks out of 100 for management -.-" i answer different then what they ask..haha habis la gone! GG! haiyo..but just hopefully over all pass also i DONT CARE anymore as long as pass!! please for goodness sake

Funny morning drama

hello people! today is a very2 funny for me~ have to wake up quite early than my usual time which is suppose to be 12 and above but have to wake up at 10 plus..got a wedding to attend to..my moms friend sons wedding that is -.-" i didnt want to go but was forced to ! its a was a wedding for goodness sake who likes to go unless you are the bride or the groom kan..soo as i was getting ready gosok baju, hair, shoes , make up and yada yada yada...so finally at 12.30 leaving the house. my mom didnt know where the house is so we just practically rely on the map which is a confusing map..but what the heck im not the navigator but my sister is..hehe so i just seat at the back of the car and counting the street lamp continously :) so then finally we reach the house i think..theres a tent n stuff so it should be correct. then we check the address is a correct one but 1 thing that is weird. . . why theres no guest walking in and out of the house..we were in the car still..just watching the house from far..so i ask my mom is this the right house and my sister replied yea its the right address..then my mom ask whats the date of the function and funnyly is FREAKING TOMORROW!!!!! AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAH we were laughing like gila in the car ! me and my sister said..if we ever get out of the car and go to house and just got to know that it suppose to be tmr im will never come to the weeding the next day..but my mom has better suggestion to cover up the wrong date situation :

1. said we come to the wrong house

2. we cant come on the day of the wedding so we coming early to see and greet n stuff

3. just masuk and said we just checking if theres anything to help with :D

AHAHAHAHAHAH!!! its freaking funny..sepanjang pegi kenduri tak penah2 salah date!! ahaha but since we're out , we just grab our lunch at bangsar and balik. and now since i have free time before the dinner thingy..its time to clean up my room! i have to change my bedsheet!! i have bedbugs marks on my thighs..maybe they think its a freaking kfc drumstick and they think oh this is heaven and *bite* gggrr!!! i will kill you u ASAP little bugs!! not to worry..haha so i got to be going..got room to clean. ciao~